Title: November 21-27, Part 1 of 2 Sunday, November 21, 2021: Con..

Message: November 21-27, Part 1 of 2 Sunday, November 21, 2021: Considering the fact that I woke up on the floor, a full face of last night’s make up, and a gnarly hangover I would say I may have had a bit too much to drink during last night’s stream. I made a huge mess too but at least my coffee table looks good. Anyone want to send me some vintage Playboys to put on it? Eventually I made my way to the bedroom and onto the bed, which is basically where I stayed for the rest of the day, watching the Get Shorty tv show. Chris O’Dowd is so unbelievably attractive in that show, he has come a long way since Roy. I haven’t heard from Work Crush today. I couldn’t find them at work yesterday to say goodbye so I sent them a text instead but they didn’t respond. I know they were busy so I didn’t think anything about it but I at least thought I would hear from them today. I know I could take the initiative but I feel like I already have, having sent two texts yesterday that weren’t responded to. I can’t send a third, that seems desperate and needy, right? Besides, I don’t want to overwhelm them if they are busy. Ugh, why am I spending so much brain power on this?! Whatever, maybe we need a day of separation anyway. I will see them tomorrow at work and I’m sure everything will be fine. Monday , November 22, 2021: Back to work! I am definitely the craftsperson of the shop and Milwaukee is the muscle. There is a third carpenter, Mexican Michael Cera, but he is new to the field and hasn’t quite found his niche so he mostly just shadows. Milwaukee was out sick though, and we needed to rig a bunch of heavy shit in the theatre, so I got to be the muscle today, going up and down in a lift and moving structures that are literally bigger than my apartment. Work Crush didn’t come to work today, a lot of the production team had the day off because they worked the weekend. I’m glad, they all really needed it, but damn I was really hoping to see Work Crush. I just want some closure. I mean, they didn’t even tell me they weren’t coming in. I sent a text to them making sure they were still alive and got a picture in response (which, I have learned, is their way of saying that they don’t have the mental capacity to have a conversation) and they were doing game night with their family. I know they have just been busy but for some reason I feel like I did something wrong. Tuesday , November 23, 2021: I super overslept and got to work an hour late where I was then immediately drowning in work: I sanded six 4x8 sheets of plexi glass and installed them into these floor-to-ceiling sliding steel walls/doors that Milwaukee made for this kind of attic scene, then he and I framed and skinned a ceiling for a living room scene. It’s been so long since I’ve been worked that hard, it was amazing, and Milwaukee and I are such a force to be reckoned with (whenever we finally stop bickering with one another, haha!). I finally saw work crush for, like, ten seconds today. They actually made an effort to talk to me first so maybe things are fine. The shop gets out of work early tomorrow for Thanksgiving break and I am hoping Work Crush does too because I want to try do something, literally anything, with them since I know they are spending Thanksgiving day with their family. I mostly just want closure, to know that they are okay and/or we are okay. Fingers crossed. I’ve felt so anxious today. I tripped over a cable and pulled my laptop off my coffee table and sent a cup of coffee flying halfway across the living room. I’m going to bed 😔 Wednesday , November 24, 2021: We worked a half day at work today, which was nice and I understand that the company wants to give us time for the holiday, but I don’t know if it was such a good idea considering how behind every department is. In theory the show opens on the day after thanksgiving and we haven’t even done a full run through of the show. Everyone is running around like the building is on fire trying to get shit done. Whatever man, I’m just a carpenter. Our team is done and has washed our hands of that show and I actually spent today doing remedial tasks for the next show. I finally got to see and talk to Work Crush for more than thirty seconds when I was on my way out and caught them while they were on a break. They look so defeated, I could see it in their eyes. They joke about quitting a lot, but today was no joke. I legitimately don’t think they are going to stick around to do the next show. I always ask when I leave if they need or want me to get them anything before I go home. They usually say no and that they will be fine which, when I asked today, is exactly what they said. However, I wasn’t taking “no” for an answer today. Work crush was still going to be at the theatre for a few more hours so I went out and got some tequila that a quick google search told me was really nice because tequila is their favorite alcohol, some tea that I know they’ve never had that had all the things in it that I know they like because they are big into tea, and a box of their favorite butter cookies to go with the tea because they are a total foodie. I took everything back to the theatre, wrapped it up in a bag with a handwritten note telling them how good they were doing, and left it on their car just before they got out of rehearsal. Make sure you spell my name right on the Best Girlfriend of the Year award 😌 I got a call from them a few minutes later on my way home and they were at a loss for words while trying to say thank you. We ended up staying on the phone for about four hours, which was more than I had talked to them in the past eight days combined. I could hear them occasionally sipping the tea I got them and they would say softly under their breath how happy and relaxed they were. They really needed something like that and I am very glad I could be the person who gave it to them.