Title: STORYTIME: This video is very special to me. This was my fir..

Message: STORYTIME: This video is very special to me. This was my first time ever self suspending with rope. I have been self tying since 2019. Rope is much like language in the way that once you pick it up again its pretty easy to remember where you left off. It wasn’t until last year when I met Xir Oya & Shakti Bliss that I was reintroduced with the first modality that intrigued me when I began sex work for myself. The first time I ever rope bottomed I was with my mom at the Brooklyn sex expo, Kinbaku studios had some riggers doing demos on volunteers. I remember how it felt to be whisked and pulled and hoisted above the ground as if I was weightless. I remember being lost in all of my riggers hand movements; over and under through and around, I was enamores by the skill, the patience and concentration. It was something that stuck with me, something I knew that took practice, time and energy as an investment. Fast forward to now, the moment I actually began to take myself seriously lol.. I spent a few days at this nudist Airbnb in Las Vegas and thought it’s be the perfect time to practice my harnesses, y hangers and suspension prep. I spotted a hard point they had for a hanging chair when I booked but wasn’t too sure if I’d have the courage to ask to suspend from it let alone the confidence to actually do it. But then again what’s practice without failure? Luckily through friendly conversation with the owners I was able to introduce myself and of course they were lifestylers who were somewhat familiar to the performance art of shibari so they gladly allowed me to and even asked if they could watch.
And I just felt so powerful in this moment. Growing up my mom told me that I didn’t need anyone but myself to feel or experience pleasure so this is my testimony. All of the excitement I felt that day at the expo, I created for myself, by myself in that moment. With just these two hands and a courageous heart I impressed myself on a whole new level. While I was tying all I could think was “I can do anything I put my mind to, there is nothing I want to do that I can’t achieve myself. If higher is where I want to be then Higher is where I will get myself.” It’s truly inspiring to look back and reflect especially in times when I feel alone or like the load of the work I am doing is too much to carry alone. It isn’t. It’s nothing I can’t grip, nothing I can’t hoist. Nothing I can’t handle.