Title: just realized i took this pic like two days ago and just…. f..

Message: just realized i took this pic like two days ago and just…. forgot to actually post it. WHOOPS.
Also Read if You would Like to, it’s kind of a journal entry LOL
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So basically I cannot catch a break, whether it’s family, health, general stress/anxiety or just tough situations to be put it, always two of these things are happening at once. It’s almost like I can finally get something resolved at 12PM one night and have a few hours of peace and tranquility, wake up the next morning, and shit just piles up again. Idk, maybe i’m just walking Bad Luck. LOL. Regardless, It’s been tough being almost completely on my own. I wasn’t raised very well and taught how to be capable to do all of the adulting things that adults need to do. So I’m still learning all of this whilst ALSO being my Own Boss (girlboss moment) and it’s nice but also AHHHHHHHH most of the time, y’know what i mean? I’m also just….. a lil dumb and rough around the edges. That being said shit gets so stressful to me and WILD AHHHH every week. I have many people in my life who tell me on a constant basis, “I do not know someone who cannot catch a break as much as you”, and I totally agree. Side note: I’m kind of just sitting here doing a little diary entry/vent because it feels nice and safe here. For the most part, I’m comfortable with the people that are here on this account and feel comfy sharing things with y’all, even if it’s dumb or silly to vent where people mostly just wanna see da bobs.
Anyway, today was really rough for me. I woke up and within THREE hours I had so many things stacked on top of me that I could barely hold myself together. I’ve got a roommate, and (for reasons unbeknownst to me) I found out I had accidentally signed a longer lease with my current apartment complex than I had thought. That’s tuff because I assumed I would be ready to leave here in November. Found out I had to stay until January. Whoopsies. Now i’ve got a roommate, who assumed we would be getting a place soon, and not enough room to do my work comfortably (not enough space to really even make sets). I freaked out for a solid hour, then figured, might as well continue on with the plan… we’ll be splitting expenses anyway, I’ll just work harder (Lol) so I can afford two places at once (AHHHHH). Then it was the runaround with the leasing offices of both rentals (AHHHHHH). As of right now, I’m not even sure if I’ve secured the new place (its much cheaper, thank GAWD) (but it’s still… two rents at once til january (CRIES) ). OH and I also had a unrelated bill slapped in my face that was… astonishingly large and I was just like !??!??!(AHHHHH).Also of course my health is in shambles again. What else was there..? there was more that happened today……
Actually nvm, there were like a billion other things, but I won’t go into all of it.
Anyway, I get so freaking stressed out SO easily dude!! And just (AHHHH) my brain goes into (AHHHH) panic mode and then i’m a crumbling ball of anxiety for the next business day at LEAST. As of right now I dont know when that feeling will go away lololol
All of this to say, It’s currently almost 5am and I’ve come up with a sort of “game plan” for september, that I’m hoping is attainable 🤞 so I can keep busy and not worry about everything so much (and also be able to afford two rent payments til january so I don’t have to break any leases).
Anyway, I’m hoping to post something veryyyyyy nice for you all tomorrow (september 1st) and I hope y’all love it. It’s gonna be my first time getting into any kind of cosplay in MONTHS.
Ok GOODNIGHT. So sorry for the horrifically long unintelligible text post.
TLDR: AHHHH i’m living in agony
If u read this far, Thank Uuuu, i’m mostly just trying to throw this out into the world so I don’t have to hold it in so much.
XOXOXO
Ess