Hello, my dear ones, how’s life treating you?

I’m absolutely exhausted—barely getting any sleep because I’m grinding a mega achievement in WoW. Plus, I’ve got a ton of other things going on. I hadn’t been to the gym in a while because I was sick, and when I finally went yesterday, I nearly died—everything was shaking, my🩸pressure dropped, but I somehow pulled through. Also, I’m barely eating any protein. Running purely on pizza and chocolate. But whatever, we’ll all rot the same in the end.

My dad, of course, once again showed his “best” side today. For those who don’t know—he’s a psychopath, a sociopath, a former addict and alcoholic. Oh, and also a psychiatrist specializing in addiction treatment. His official working hours are until 1 PM, but when patients show up, he’s nowhere to be found—off eating, walking around, visiting his mistress, doing anything but actually working. The nurse ends up handling the patients. And then he yells at her for not doing things well enough. Just an absolute disaster. Today, he also spewed some insane nonsense at my mom and me, but I can’t be bothered to recount it.

Anyway, I’ve got a ton of things to do today, but I’m in a good mood. At this point, I’ve got more antidepressants in my 🩸stream than red🩸cells, so I’m not even upset.

A couple of days ago, I rewatched The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly. I love that movie for its simple plot and slow pacing—though for some, that might be a downside. Basically, three guys ride through the Wild West looking for gold in a cemetery. Unsurprisingly, my favorite is the Bad guy🥴🥴🥴 It’s a classic, but I wouldn’t necessarily recommend it to modern audiences because it really is very straightforward. The soundtrack, though, is amazing—you’ve definitely heard it even if you don’t think you have.

I’m also eagerly waiting for The Wandering Spirit visual novel to wrap up. For some reason, I got really hooked on the villain and the heroine’s dialogue—it’s simple but very consistent. He keeps trying to prove to her that people are trash and, when push comes to shove, will always choose themselves. Meanwhile, she keeps believing in the good in people and pointing out the rare moments that confirm her view. The logic of it annoyed me at first—sorry, but if you add a spoonful of honey to a barrel of tar, it’s still gonna taste like tar.

And then, at some point, it hit me. Sorry for the mediocrity of my realization🥴 If I were in the heroine’s place, I’d answer Walter like this:

Yeah, the world is garbage, people are garbage, and the moments that prove otherwise are extremely rare. But as much as possible, you don’t have to let that poison you from the inside. If you can help it. Keeping your mind and soul calm—not getting angry, not gloating, not sinking into despair. A positive outlook on the world isn’t something you’re just given—it’s something you have to work for and choose every day.

Of course, I’m not gonna do that—I do love a good rant and smear.