I never talked here about things that make me cry but honestly I can’t handle it myself anymore. I’m just feeling that people are so aggressive to me because I’m too kind, too caring, maybe too y00ung for them to be where I am now, and their jealousy is so enormous.
What happened this afternoon: it was supposed to be just a yoga class but it turned into a 2h cry for me.The story behind it , I live in a small village and there is no yoga classes in the nearest 30minutes from my home, instead here is one retreat howtel that has spa and yoga classes for howtel (w is added in the word cause of OF rules) guests. However, spa treatments were open for buuking from outside of the howtel . I was booking quite often massage or spa days at this howtel and spa area is managed by the daughter of the howtels’ owner which I get to know while my visits. Because I was a regular guest for spa , she offered me to visit yoga classes for free if I book a treatment. So I buuked a massage and started visiting yoga classes (2-3 classes during one week). This afternoon I came to yoga class and was about to book the spa treatment after instead I got shouted at my face by administrator of this spa that I can’t just come and go to yoga whenever I want, when I tried to explain her my agreement or that this could be a misunderstand , she said no we are not welcoming people from outside. Important to mention, I asked from the very beginning how much I have to pay for yoga classes and got the answer from the owners’ daughter that I can freely come for free.

What insults me the most is the rudeness of people, I was a regular guest , I paid always generously the tips for the whole team and took not the cheapest treatments just to make any treatment but really I bought bespoke and long massages that were above the average price. Instead I was flashed with d1irt as if I am a beggar on the street……still trying to get calm from this….my hands are still shaking